Sunday, November 20th, 2005
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3:18 am
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I haven't updated in a while.....but not much has changed. Torrey and I are still doing quite amazingly I might say....I am quitting my job....Tomorrow is my last day.....I'm about to start working out hardcore again....I miss my Jewish friends....I keep having thoughts about the future...Nothing solid, just random thoughts about what I want....Fiddler on the Roof is amazing....even though I can't find the DVD at the moment!!!.....I wish I could see him again....I want to tell him how much of an impact he's had on me.....Legally Blonde sucks!!! I go to work at 7 in the morning tomorrow....I wish my voice would work again.......I should have just stayed home tonight.....I don't understand why people actually like me....I mean, I'm not too special....I'm starting to think it's a shallow thing for most people....Ever since I became skinnier and just having a different look, more people seem to have crushes on me....I know Torrey isn't one of them...but I don't like the reasons why the others like me....I want pie....I hate Pi.....Calculus is hard....I'm never gonna find time to do all of my homework...I have to choose what needs to be done first....Guided readings....I HATE THEM!!! I will get my revenge on them....That's it for me...I can't think about things like homework now because I'm tired and I need one night to relax and not stress over anything....Adios.....
Sam
current mood:  peaceful
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Monday, October 24th, 2005
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7:03 pm - I love you guys!!
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I am feeling better. That incident on Sunday was just that...an incident. I love that so many people called me or left messages telling me that they loved me and everything. It made me feel really good. I almost cried when I was thinking about my dad...but all of ya'll made me feel better. THANKS!!!
Umm...I don't have much to say....Life is good. Things are making sense....that's it. Love to all!
Sam
current mood:  content
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Sunday, October 9th, 2005
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8:24 pm
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So I haven't updated in a while....no time...ya'll know how it is. Well nothing new is going on... I had my first choir concert....and for the first time in a while...I was nervous. That means that it was something that I was truely worried about....I was really scared about messing up...I did....but that's ok. Band doesn't really make me nervous...idk why...it should but it doesn't.
I don't know what to write about....Torrey and I are doing great...ummm I'm really enjoying spending time with her....I get on her nerves sometimes....but that's just me and I'm a klutz...that's the worst thing about me...I'm so weird...I always run into everyone and...I always feel bad about that...
I've decided it's time for yet another change in my life. I think it's time to really shape up and become who I want to be...Don't get the idea that I'm upset with who I am...I just want to become....more i guess...idk..it's all a new concept to me...so we'll see what happens..
That's it for me....
Sam
current mood:  sleepy
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Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
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6:23 am
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1. Have you ever been searched by the cops? nope
2. Do you close your eyes on rollercoasters? never...I love the thrill
3. When's the last time you've been sleigh riding? never been sleigh riding
4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone? someone else
5. Do you believe in Ghosts? yes
6. Do you consider yourself creative? normally
7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife? yes I do
8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie? Jennifer...though I like Angekina's lips
9. Can you honestly say you know anything about politics? anything? nothing
10. Do you know how to play poker? yupp and I've won about 100 dollars playing
11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? no
12. Do you kill bugs that are in the house? ants....
13. Have you ever cheated on a test? a few tests that were a little too difficult like a math test and I looked for a step i missed in figuring out the problem...but that was last year....never this year
14. If you're driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around ... do you go through red lights? No because cops are always around me.
15. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you? only one person knows that...and she knows who she is
16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees? Red Sox...gotta love Boston
17. Have you ever ice skated? once in Austin
18. How often do you remember your dreams? people are not really supposed to remember their dreams but every once in a while.
19. When was the last time you laughed so hard you were crying? Homecoming
20. Can you name 5 songs by The Beatles? Yesterday, Yellow Submarine, Michelle, All My Loving, Paper Bag Writer
22. Do you believe in love at first sight? lust
23. Do you know who Ba-Ba-Booey is? yupp
24. Do you always wear your seatbelt? always
25. What talent do you wish you had? reading minds
26. Do you like sushi? love it
27. Have you ever narrowly avoided a fatal accident? once really
28. What do you wear to bed? .....briefs
29. Have you ever been caught stealing? nope
30. Does size matter? no
31. Do you truly hate anyone? no
32. Rock and Roll or Rap? rock
33. If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be? ummm probably...Jennifer Aniston
34. Do you have a relative in prison? nope
35. Have you ever sang in front of the mirror like your favorite singer? when no one can hear me
36. Do you know how to play chess? yupp...I'm not good though
37. What food do you find disgusting? olives, onions, and raw tomatoes from school.
38. Did you ever play, "I'll show you mine, if you show me yours?" I wouldn't want to
39. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back? not like really making fun of them...joking around
40. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? yup
41. Have you ever been punched in the face? yeah...it hurts
42. When is the last time you threw up from drinking too much? never drank that much
43. Have you ever walked out on a movie at the theater? yeah...the movie was pretty bad
44. Do you ever sit through a bad movie, just to see how bad it can get? yeah....
46. Have you ever met someone famous that you really wanted to meet? A musician named Danny Nichols...
47. Have you ever been stood up? once....I met her at the skating rink and asked her to go bowling and she didn't show up
48. When's the last time you screamed at the top of your lungs? at practice
49. Did you ever do something that you didn't want to, just to fit in? no
50. Do you consider yourself "the biggest fan" of something? not really....
current mood:  tired
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Saturday, October 1st, 2005
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8:44 am
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So my life is pretty awesome. School is pretty fun. I'm not having much fun with Guided readings but that's to be expected. Choir is really awesome. Mr. Knight got me to actually sing out. Torrey really liked that apparently. Michael didn't like it much though...he likes being in the spotlight so I just wanted to make him upset. Band is good. My arms hurt like no other but that's just how it is being a Drum Major. Ummm....Torrey and I are doing very well. almost 5 months now. I don't think I've been this happy with someone before....it's interesting being in a steady relationship....knowing my old dating ways...I used to just date a bunch a people....never really settling down....so this is all really new to me...I like it.
That's it for me...have a nice weekend
Sam
current mood: tired
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Sunday, September 11th, 2005
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9:12 pm
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I don't think I have ever been this pissed. Why is it that my mom treated my brother like a god damn prince and treat me like the pauper. I hope i used the right analogy there. Matt recieved as much money as he wanted, as much anything that he wanted....I....I get shit. I work....I do band and choir...I keep my damn grades up....and I get told that I'm not doing enough. How in the fucking world does she figure I'm not doing enough? I fucking hate my mom. I have been told that once matt left, I would get whatever I wanted or needed....I haven't recieved shit. I haven't gotten the thousand and one hundred dollars from social security that is supposed to be under my name...I haven't gotten respect....I haven't gotten anything I'm about to quit my job....then what? I get less money and I'll be treated with less respect. I am better than my brother....and yet treated like his lesser.I'm not happy....I can't be....The worst part is....no one can stop me....And no one can help me....I put on the happy face to the best of my abilities...FUCK IT ALL! I don't have goddamn time to feel fucking sorry for myslef....I just want it all to go away....and it just won't!
I haven't had to force tears back as much as I am right now...so many horrible things in my head...I could do it....But I won't....because my only redemtion is my friends....the only people who have ever cared....
Sam.....
current mood:  rejected
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Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
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8:30 pm - I'm bored
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Sunday, September 4th, 2005
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10:36 pm - randomness
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Tuesday, August 30th, 2005
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6:38 am
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Wow....life....so weird how things go down. My mind is so damn full of random thoughts and random ideas.
So school is ok....So much homework....so little time. The only class I actually look foward to now is....choir. I'm having so much fun with the singing thing.
Band is band of course....nothing too much is going on with that. I'm excited to learn the rest of the show...I don't think the rest of the band is...Most of them seem to hate being there.....they need to step it up and try and have some fun.
Torrey and I are doing great....there's not much to say about that....I'm just happy.
That's it for me...I'm going to go to school.
current mood: tired
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Wednesday, August 17th, 2005
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7:21 pm - New email address....
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I'm getting a new email address...It's saxy_sam07@yahoo.com
That'll be my new messenger name...so add me please. This will also be the place I will hopefully get the band member's wonderfull Viper articles.
Everything's going well. School is not even that bad...I just need to read a bit. Band is good. My arms are a bit sore but I just need to work them out more.
Torrey and I are doing great. 3 months today... :D
That's it for me....I'm gonna go read chapter 1 and 2 of the history book...
current mood:  happy
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Saturday, August 6th, 2005
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5:46 pm
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I just got off work...like 20 minutes ago. I worked 10 hours because it was busy...fun for me. Just more money. I just thought about the pay check I get on Tuesday all day. I'll be getting about 200 dollars...doesn't sound like too much...but for 5 days of work...it's pretty good. Most people who work just weekends get about 150 every 2 weeks. I haven't had an abundance of money since a month and a half ago...It's been rough...and my mom thinks since I have a job I shouldn't get any money from her...
Band is going well...People seem to be getting used to me being drum major...I've been getting some dirty looks from people when I'm conducting...mainly from Victoria C. (the bass drum player.) She hates me...too bad she didn't deserve it. She just wanted the power. She blames it on me...even though Mr. Munsell chose the three of us becuase we were the best for the job...
Torrey and I are doing quite well. I never really update about us...and today is no different...if anyone wants to know anything...they know to ask me or her.
That's it for me today....I'm gonna go chill....peace
current mood: tired
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Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
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9:52 pm
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Band is going well....Torrey and I are doing well also. Got my schedual...I have
English 3 AP with Sestak
Band
US History with Wagner
Principles of Tech with WALKER!!
Psychology
Choir
Calculus AP with WALKER again!!!
I'll update more tonight
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Saturday, July 30th, 2005
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7:02 pm
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Today was pretty freakin' sweet. It started out bad...but then just got better and better. I woke up kind of badly...Then I got to work. It wasn't that bad...money in the bank as I always say. I need money...I'm flat freakin' broke. I just checked my bank statement...OMG broke.....My mom will give me money...but I wanna earn it all...but I can't live off of the $5.75 an hour I get paid at McDonalds....I can probably pay my gass off with that money....since I pay gass monthly and get paid twice a month....I can make gas payments on my car and my mom's....my way of earning the car. That way it is my car and not the car my mom bought for me to drive...that's what my mom calls it.
I'm bored out of my mind...there's nothing to do except clean my room...I don't want to though....I want to just chill and maybe finish harry potter....
i'm going to.....call me if u wanna....
current mood:  bored
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Friday, July 22nd, 2005
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9:27 am
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Well I'm recovering from the whole wisdom teeth thing...I'm bored....If anyone wants to do anything today or anytime this week...give me a call or leave me a comment cuz I'm going freakin' crazy over here....
current mood: bored
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Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
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6:00 pm
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I got my wisdom teeth out yesterday morning....I'm doing fine...not much pain....I wish more people would come and see me though...if you want to swing by...call my cell...that'd be nice. Well hopefully I'll get better in time to go do stuff before school starts.
Peace out homies!!!!
current mood: tired
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Monday, July 18th, 2005
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8:29 pm
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Getting my wisdom teeth out in the morning....see ya'll on the other side...PEACE!!!
current mood:  scared
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Saturday, July 9th, 2005
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8:17 pm
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I'm in Virginia.....I'm bored....I miss everybody. I've been chilling at the beach fir a week....I'm tan...and fattish. I ate soooooooooooo much. It was sooo much fun. Fourth of July was the bestest!!!! The fireworks were only a few hundred feet away from my room....It went on for about an hour or so of non-stop fireworks. I come home on Tuesday for anyone who cares....I leave on wednesday for Drum Major camp. I'm spending most of my time in town on Tuesday with one person... Torrey and I are doing very well. Since she isn't updating on this thing much....I will. It's been hard since I've been gone...These 2 weeks have felt like an eternity for me. Though I have been having fun....I'm excited to get back and see her and a few other frineds...
I didn't get to see Andrew...That really pissed me off... So now I have figured out what I'm gonna be saving my money up for...I'm gonna go down there during part of Christmas break and hang with my amigo de India. Indian boy...I'll see you then. I promise.
That's pretty much it for now. I don't have much to continue with...maybe next time I'll have more interesting things to talk about on this thing...Peace out
current mood:  full
current music: Pimp My Ride
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Friday, June 17th, 2005
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11:40 pm
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Ok I'm gonna talk about something i really haven't mentioned in this journal thing...My summer camp.
I started going there when I was in the 8th grade...I had a horrible time my first summer...but I decided to give it another try the next year...I loved every minute of it. I did things like climb a 70 foot tower...(I hate heights) I learned to fence, I led prayer services, and just lived it up with a lot of jews. Then the next summer came...I was in a different group called Kibbutz...This is a group that lives separate from everyone else....we cook our own food and grow some too...we live as a group. I had the greatest summer of my life that summer. I did more than I could even have imagined to. I led a day long activity....I helped plan our big mural....I also just lived it up again...The summer went by so slowly until the last day...
I wanna talk about that summer more...
I got there on july 14th....early july 14th. I had left my house at 7...too bad I couldn't sleep the night before. My mom and I drove for 2 hours...I couldn't stand the wait. I got there...I was in the oldest camper group...I felt mature and powerful. I met up with my friends in my cabin. We had to share a tiny cabin with no AC with 13 other guys....I got to know my counselers...My roommates for the summer...I went to the Chadar Ochel....the cafeteria...I ate lunch with some old and some new friends. Then everyone in Kibbutz had to go back to the bunks...It was bonding time. One of my friends from my first summer wasn't there yet. That made me sad. He eventually showed up. We went through introductions and then we went through our first meal together and then off to bed. We were awoken at around....1 and were led off to something that I can't talk about cuz it's a kibbutz tradition not to mention the first night of camp. The next day it was official...I was a kibbutznic. I loved every minute of it.
The next few days were settleing in time. We just got used to our surroundings. We did some activities to bond some more. I miss those times.
We split into work groups. I was in cooking first. Pancakes were my speciality. AND FRENCH TOAST!!!
We spent most of the day laying around doing nothing...being the lazy stupid heads we were. I also miss those times.
It sucks that I can't go back...even for a day this summer. I miss it all so much. I'm going back next soummer but it isn't the same. I want to be there now...sitting out in the kibbutz lounge area and just looking at the stars. Talking to my buddies as we drink koolaid and soda. I can still feel the first cool breeze of the summer...It was the last one there. I can hear my friends laughing it up while we have water fights during dish time. I can hear the roar of the fans in unison because NO AC means HOT!!! I miss Phillip, Mindy, Josh, Josh, Josh, and even Josh. I miss all of my drama buddies. I miss those stupid kids lighting themselves on fire at 12 in the morning. I miss Calvin trying to convince me that Pinball wizard is an amazing song. I miss that stupid kid talking about his itchy body...long story. I miss it all. I will become the kibbutz unit head one day...it's a new dream. I miss everyone from kibbutz... 0 fo fo sho.
current mood:  envious
current music: nothing
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Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
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8:17 am - my summer....
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Ok so to update on my life...
All I have been doing is sitting around and playing video games...or watching movies...or working. This summer has been amazing. I got paid yesterday. 166.16$ that's not bad...but not good. I want more money for other things...o well. I no longert have the problems I used to have...I'm happy...extremely happy....giddy even. :D I'm excited about the rest of the summer...I'm upset that I have to be gone for so long but...I will be having fun at the beach so...maybe I won't think about being sad so much over there...DM camp....YAY!!!!....then wisdom teeth removing...NOOO!!!!!!
My mother is insane....she thinks I'm out to get her....I'm gonna try and be nicer but...only because I'm tired of being yelled at now...
current mood:  giddy
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Sunday, June 12th, 2005
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11:49 am - bored
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FIRSTS
First screenname: supersmurf_78666
First self purchased album: ...Nirvana
First funeral: My Father
First piercing/tattoo: NONE
First true love: True love?....No comment
LASTS
Last cigarette: never
Last car ride: ride? today
Last good cry: a long time ago
Last library book: Through the looking glass
Last movie seen (in theater): Longest Yard
Last beverage drank: Tea
Last food consumed: Waffels...MMMMMM
Last phone call: Torrey
Last Time Showered: today
Last shoes worn: brown flip flops
Last item bought: Mentos
Last annoyance: My brother
Last time wanting to die: not for a long time now
Last time scolded: I don't remember
RELATIONSHIPS
Who are your best friends? Torrey, Marcos, Sarina,....there are more...
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes
Do you do drugs?: nope
What kind of shampoo do you use? whatever is in the shower
What are you most scared of? The dark
What are you listening to right now? Chris playing a video game
Where do you want to get married? In a church overlooking the beach at sunset
What would you change about yourself?my...my...my indecisiveness
FAVORITES
Colors: Blues and greens
Foods: Italian
Boy names: Morrison and Jacob
Girl names: Jennifer and Catherine
Subjects in school: History
Animals: Gipsy
Sports: Band, Football, and hockey
Perfume: Carbon...a cologne
HAVE YOU EVER
Given anyone a bath? nope
Bungee Jumped?: nope
Made yourself throw up? no
Skinny dipped? ...not that I know of
Ever been in love?: yes
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? not recently
Pictured your crush naked? No comment
Actually seen your crush naked?no..never
Lied? yes
Fallen for a close friend? yes
Been rejected? yeah
Rejected someone? yes
Used someone? no
Done something you regret? no regrets...
CURRENT
Clothes: Israeli shirt and shorts
Music: none
Annoyance: my shoes
Smell: my cologne
Favorite band/artist: Beach Boys
Desktop picture: a pic matt drew
In DVD player: Team America...not good
LAST PERSON
You touched: Torrey
Hugged: Torrey
You IMed: Catie
IMed you: ...idk
Called you: Torrey
You called: Torrey
Bought you flowers: No one...sad
WHO DO YOU WANNA
Kill: no one
Slap: Marcos
Kiss: Torrey
WHICH IS BETTER
Coke or pepsi: Dr. Pepper
Flowers or candy: Candy...I'm fat...
Tall or short: Shorter than me
RANDOM
In the morning I am: Hyper
All I need is: love
Love: is just a game
You dreamt of: strangly....band
Last person you danced with: Torrey
Worst question to ask: idk
Who makes you laugh the most: All my friends make me laugh equally....
Who has a crush on you: I hope Torrey...:D
DO YOU EVER
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: ...hmm..not really
Wish you were younger: I like 16
NUMBER
Of times I have had my heart broken: 2 or 3
Of hearts I have broken: 2 or 3
Of GIRLS I've kissed: umm.....including dares, spin the bottle, and actually wanting to kiss...I'd say about 20 ....yeah crazy
Of continents I have lived in: ONE YAY
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